WOW. A FEW DAYS LATER AND I AM STILL APPALLED BY WHAT HAPPENED...I LIVE OVER 1000 MILES AWAY AND MY HEART ACHES. I KNOW THE SHOOTING AT SANDY HOOK HAS AFFECTED MANY OF YOU BECAUSE I SEE YOU ON FACEBOOK TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL. WE CAN'T. WE NEVER WILL.
HERE ARE THE MAIN QUESTIONS THAT GO THROUGH MY HEAD. ( OF COURSE THE USUAL QUESTIONS ARE THERE, LIKE WHY, WHY KIDS, WHY HIM ETC.)
BUT WHAT I CAN'T GET PAST IS:
WHY DID HE SHOOT HIS MOTHER AT A HOME LOCATION AND STILL DRIVE TO SCHOOL AND SHOOT? WHY NOT HIS BROTHER RYAN?
WHY SO MANY SHOTS? WHY MORE THAN ONE SHOT PER VICTIM? WHY ARE YOU SUCH A COWARD THAT YOU TOOK YOUR OWN LIFE?
I LOVE MY KIDS. I WORRY EVERYDAY THAT SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN TO ME OR THEM. I PRAY ABOUT IT EACH DAY. IN MY HEAD THERE IS NO WAY THAT I COULD SURVIVE IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ONE OF THEM. I LOVE THEM MORE THAN THE MOON AND THE STARS AND ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD. THEY WILLNEVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM.
I read an article that the people of the community have all taken down their Christmas decorations as a show of respect. They don't understand how they can celebrate or be cheerful this time of year. They feel guilty having them up Read the story HERE
THAT BEING SAID, I CAN'T GET THESE PARENT'S OUT OF MY HEAD. THEY WILL HAVE UNOPENED PRESENTS THAT WILL NOT BE TOUCHED, THEY WILL HAVE TOYS THAT WILL JUST LAY THERE, THEY WILL SMELL THEIR CHILDREN ON THE BEDDING ITEMS AND NEVER, EVER BE ABLE TO SQUEEZE THEM AGAIN. THIS I CAN'T TAKE. I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR THE PARENTS. MAY THEIR HEARTS BE A LITTLE LESS HEAVY WITH EACH PASSING DAY. THERE IS NOT ANYTHING WE CAN DO OTHER THAN PRAY FOR THEM. THERE ARE NO WORDS THAT CAN MAKE THIS BETTER FOR THEM.
THE STORY THAT HAS TOUCHED MY HEART IS THAT OF
Victoria Soto. It is said that she threw herself in front of her students, taking the bullet to save them. I like to believe that any adult will jump in front of a bullet for a child. I would. I hope someone would for my child. You can read her story HERE You look at her picture and your heart is saddened. It becomes a little more real. She is beautiful and young and was doing what she loved best.
The principal died trying to attact the shooter. I may have done the same thing. Instinct kicks in. Die standing or Die fighting. She tried to save her students. So many more stories to read about. You can literally google and keep reading and reading. It is so easy to get sucked in. And then let it go.
THERE IS SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT ALL OF THIS. THERE IS NO WAY TO EXPRESS IT ALL, ESPECIALLY IN ONE BLOG POST. THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAT I WANT TO SQUEEZE IN BUT I WILL LEAVE IT AT THIS TODAY.. JUST A FEW OF MY THOUGHTS ON THE MATTER.
I DID TELL MY CHILDREN. I TOLD THE TRUTH AND GAVE A DETAILS. THEY ARE 15, 10 AND 8. IT IS ALL OVER THE NEWS, PAPERS AND EVERYONE IS TALKING ABOUT IT. I FIGURE I MIGHT AS WELL TELL THEM THE WHOLE STORY SO THEY DON'T GET IT WRONG FROM OTHERS. I TELL THEM NOT TO BE SCARED AND TRY TO EXPLAIN WHY IT MIGHT HAVE HAPPENED. I ASSURE THEM THAT SCHOOL IS STILL ONE OF THE SAFEST PLACES TO BE.
FEEL FREE TO LEAVE ANY COMMENTS. EVEN IF THEY ARE DISAGREEABLE WITH ANYTHING I SAID. WE AS A NATION HAVE TO HEAL OURSELVES IN A WAY ALSO. WRITING THERAPY IS GREAT FOR BLOGGERS. IT IS WHAT WE DO.
HUG YOUR CHILDREN. TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM. WATCH THEM, TAKE PICTURES, CHERISH EACH MOMENT. WRITE TO THEM, KEEP WHAT THEY WRITE TO YOU. STOP DOING THE DISHES AND PLAY BATTLESHIP! IT COUNTS. EACH MOMENT COUNTS. I WANT MY CHILDREN TO REMEMBER THE DAY I PLAYED OPERATION AND HELPED WITH A PUZZLE AND NOT ME STANDING AT THE SINK SAYING "IN A LITTLE BIT"
