If you really knew me

if you really knew me
           You would know that I am Super messy although I try not to be. I have a clean, organized view of how I want things to be but can never, ever seem to get things in any kind of order. 
            You would also know that my brain also feels SUPER cluttered. My thoughts are often jumbled up and I am sure that is why I am SUPER messy.

if you really knew me 
        You would know that my idea of a perfect off day is laying up on the couch watching TV and doing nothing else. Tuning out the world is a great way to let your brain have an off day!
         You would also know that I fell SUPER guilty when I do this. I feel like I need to be up cleaning the house or playing with the kids. I don't know why I beat myself up with the guilt but I do.

if you really knew me 
        You would know that i have know idea what to do with my life. I have no idea. I am 34 years old and I try to picture what I should be doing. I DO NOT KNOW!. I work job to job but that is exactly what they are...JUST A JOB. I want to find something that I WANT TO DO. Something I will love. I just don't know what that is. I have spent numerous hours trying to figure this out.

if you really knew me
            I think laundry is the worst chore in the whole world. Housework sucks all around but the laundry is the absolute worst of them all.


IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME THEN YOU KNOW THAT
MY CHILDREN AND MY HUBBY ARE MY WORLD. I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR THEM. I WOULD SACRIFICE ANYTHING FOR THEM AND WOULD DIE FOR THEM.
ONE OF THOSE
YOU MESS WITH THEM YOU MESS WITH ME KIND OF THINGS!!!

stay tuned for more 
        if you really knew me








Then you would know that I love my children more than anything else in the world. I would die for them or make any sacrifice necessary.